I'm struck by the idea of the expectations we place on others to provide us with happiness...or at the very least a sense of comfort or ease or purpose and how those expectations leads us to create or produce/reproduce the art that we do....

In the last two weekends (this one and last weekend) I have known happiness and disappointment at the same time....in people who exceeded my expectations in one breath and then lowered those expectations to the point where I cannot see them anymore.

So I am left wondering, is it my fault for believing those expectations are ok for me to have of everyone, to trust in the personal part of our relationships AND the professional part or should I never trust anyone to truly meet my expectations no matter how amazing they seem?

Is it ok to have hope that the people we involve ourselves with will exceed our expectations? Or should we only hope that they will meet them and stop at the water's edge and not allow ourselves the luxury of thinking that maybe they will go far above and beyond what we expect of them?

Is that the place where we find ourselves when our art...whether its dance or a script, a song or a scenic design or piece of visual art or architecture, comes alive and is its purest and most truthful? I point back to a previous blog when I referenced a piece of #AaronSorkin writing when I quoted a Poet Laureate character of his, Tabitha Fortis, who said,

'You think I think that an artist's job is to speak the truth. An artist's job...is to captivate you for however long we've asked for your attention. If we stumble into truth, we got lucky, and I don't get to decide what truth is.'

I don't get to decide what anyone else's truth is...all I can do is know and trust my own truth and what I can contribute and hope those I involve myself with will have the courage and inspiration to know their truth and what they provide me to expect from them and bring it to work with me. Because if they do that, then I all I need to ask is....

What's next???

Selena